I have to admit. I haven’t looked forward to Christmas in quite a few years. I hate the commercialization that has taken over the holiday. We seem to see more and more Christmas things in stores earlier and earlier each year. This year I saw things out about 2 weeks before Thanksgiving and it saddened me. This is supposed to be a time when Christians celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ and Jewish believers celebrate Hanukah. I hate how as a society, we have been conditioned to think it’s “Christ like” to spend extravagant amounts of money on material things for those we love. It’s the polar opposite of what Christ taught. I’ve rebelled at it and have refused to participate over the past few years… and I don’t apologize for it. I think it’s a time for reflection and contemplate the miracle that is Jesus Christ.
If you truly knew me you would know how odd a statement that is coming from me. I am pretty quick at lacing together four letter words in ways you didn’t even know was possible and I can drop 10 f-bombs inside of 15 seconds when needed. It’s a product of a lifetime being a Marine. I can make it (almost) sound beautiful. I’m always willing to help when asked, but that mouth of mine is something that needs some work. That being said, I feel this is a time for reflecting on what is good in life. I think it’s a time to be thankful for the blessings that I have been given because things could be so much worse than they currently are.
I’m thankful for all of the things you normally hear people say. I have a wife that completes me. I have a daughter that I’m extremely proud of. I have a relationship with my father now that I never had growing up…. maybe one day my son might decide to work on that with me. I have a roof over my head, food in the kitchen, pets that complete the home…. etc. I’m also thankful for Multiple Myeloma.
Having this disease has changed me in unexpected ways. I’m more in tune with my fellow human beings. I’m more understanding of someone who is struggling. As a Marine it was always “Suck it up” and I was quick to point that out. Now I know there are some things you just can’t do that with. It’s kind of hard to suck it up when your blood is poisonous and the medicine you take is just as poisonous. There aren’t enough straws!!! It’s made me much humbler in how I look at my place in the world and more compassionate on how I treat people. That change has allowed me to write about my experiences and interact with people from around the world in a positive way that I don’t think I could have done before I was diagnosed with cancer.
I love it when someone goes out of their way to contact me online to ask a MM related question. I have a sense of immense pleasure when someone says ‘Thank you” for helping them through a rough part of this disease. The age old saying that nothing is as fulfilling as giving unselfishly is true. I’m a living, breathing testament to that. I guess that’s what I’ve been reflecting on. I’m fortunate enough to see that by creating this website, participating in Facebook groups and by writing about different things every few days I am helping others in ways that I may or may not see and I thank God that He has allowed me the opportunity to do this.
I’m going to close this with a wish that everyone has a Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukah or a happy holiday season this year. Keep your heads up and good luck with in your battles with Myeloma. Feel free to reach out if you need to bounce some things off me or with any questions. Thank you for your support!